Fight against my TyKa Self [Poetry - Mild Swearing]

Fight against My TyKa self
by *Yuki-Kiba-Chan

Been getting down on myself lately
wondering why
I’ve lost my fear of falling
As I can no longer fly
I keep trying and trying
To give it my all
By time after time
I continue to fall

It’s like I have all this passion
Just waiting to break free
But when I try to express it
It back fires on me

I sit here with this pencil
And passion in my heart
Trying to draw
10 times over I restart

The mouse beneath my fingers
Won’t click anymore
As I edit away
My pc’s getting bored

And I stare at that sewing machine
Thinking what to do with it
Burn it or throw it in the bin
As everything always turns out shit

Photoshop can go to hell
As I try to colour today
I’m even trying to use the tablet
And it’s still not going to go my way

If I wasn’t in this block
I would be able to create something cool
Something worthy
For the pairing of whom I drool

And it doesn’t matter how many people
Tell me things look good
It’s still not at the level I want
When by now I know i should

Even tried collaborating
But that doesn’t work
The more and more I try
The more and more I hurt

My pairing deserve better
Than my failed attempts
So why can’t I stop
From trying for them?

One day I will create
A tyka covered cake
And it will be so great
That we will call it fate

But for now I’ll stay on the floor
Crawling in kaitaka land
And hope to god someone
Extends me a tyka hand….

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LOL

This is about me and my obsession for Tyson and Kai, and how i was real annoyed and down on myself as it seemed like I couldn't do ANYTHING that does any justice for this pairing, I try and try, but I keept failing… haha XD i really got angry at myself when i wrote this, but looking at it now, it's kinda funny, I'm a real doosh at times <3 This pairing brings out the best in me!

Gah *_* Awesome! I swear, you capture that feeling perfectly! It is SO annyoing whent that happens!

Racoona wrote:

Gah *_* Awesome! I swear, you capture that feeling perfectly! It is SO annyoing whent that happens!

Totally right? lol! Aww thanks! <33 thanks for nudgeing me, i probaly wouldn't have put it up otherwise hehe

Yuki-Kiba-Chan wrote:

Racoona wrote:

Gah *_* Awesome! I swear, you capture that feeling perfectly! It is SO annyoing whent that happens!

Totally right? lol! Aww thanks! <33 thanks for nudgeing me, i probaly wouldn't have put it up otherwise hehe

*NUDGE NUDGE FREAKIN NUDGE* Hello? We need the TyKa, it is a drug! A drug I have denied myself SO long, and the freakin abstinences are killing me, so help me produce some more, right?

Racoona wrote:

Yuki-Kiba-Chan wrote:

Racoona wrote:

Gah *_* Awesome! I swear, you capture that feeling perfectly! It is SO annyoing whent that happens!

Totally right? lol! Aww thanks! <33 thanks for nudgeing me, i probaly wouldn't have put it up otherwise hehe

*NUDGE NUDGE FREAKIN NUDGE* Hello? We need the TyKa, it is a drug! A drug I have denied myself SO long, and the freakin abstinences are killing me, so help me produce some more, right?

ROFFLLL YESS! XDD I must draw something new! i promised kio a picture *_* <3 I shall do that now, Yes!

Yuki-Kiba-Chan wrote:

Racoona wrote:

Yuki-Kiba-Chan wrote:

Racoona wrote:

Gah *_* Awesome! I swear, you capture that feeling perfectly! It is SO annyoing whent that happens!

Totally right? lol! Aww thanks! <33 thanks for nudgeing me, i probaly wouldn't have put it up otherwise hehe

*NUDGE NUDGE FREAKIN NUDGE* Hello? We need the TyKa, it is a drug! A drug I have denied myself SO long, and the freakin abstinences are killing me, so help me produce some more, right?

ROFFLLL YESS! XDD I must draw something new! i promised kio a picture *_* <3 I shall do that now, Yes!

Ohgodyes! I am so totally waiting for this! I have several people promising me TyKa ^^

Yuki-Kiba-Chan wrote:

Racoona wrote:

Yuki-Kiba-Chan wrote:

Racoona wrote:

Gah *_* Awesome! I swear, you capture that feeling perfectly! It is SO annyoing whent that happens!

Totally right? lol! Aww thanks! <33 thanks for nudgeing me, i probaly wouldn't have put it up otherwise hehe

*NUDGE NUDGE FREAKIN NUDGE* Hello? We need the TyKa, it is a drug! A drug I have denied myself SO long, and the freakin abstinences are killing me, so help me produce some more, right?

ROFFLLL YESS! XDD I must draw something new! i promised kio a picture *_* <3 I shall do that now, Yes!

That was real nice. You're a poet, who knew? XD Yeah, I just lack the motivation to keep myself going when I do big projects. I really gotta work on my cosplay if it's going to be done in time for Otakuthon.
BTW, I squee for anything TyKa! I rly wanna see that lovegame AMV I asked for a long time ago too.

Oh god, im such a bad person >w< I will do that now i have sony vegas back! lol gosh too many things i need to doooo -fail- *victory pose* i will i will! >DDDD

Yeah, i have a seperate writting account, i wrote a lot of songs/poetry growing up, really helped me get through hard times :3

Yuki-Kiba-Chan wrote:

Oh god, im such a bad person >w< I will do that now i have sony vegas back! lol gosh too many things i need to doooo -fail- *victory pose* i will i will! >DDDD

Yeah, i have a seperate writting account, i wrote a lot of songs/poetry growing up, really helped me get through hard times :3

Yay!!! Motivation! <3